Coming to the End

They never tell you exactly when something is going to end, its simply to hard to explain and grasp. This is due, in part, to time being nothing more than a construct that we have created to fit the model fo the world in which is seen fit. Really it feels as though time is something of an illusion. Remember being five years old, thinking an hour nap was going to kill you. That one hour nap felt more like an eternity. The days were longer because our perception was still developing, once we gained the knowledge to comprehend time, it started to speed up. Then your trapped, trapped in the never ending cycle of time as it gradually just creeps faster and faster, until your time has run out. It's as though we are being pulled toward something our entire life, time is just the cable that pulls up.

Now that I believe I've grabbed you attention with something that may either make me sound like an intellectual or bat shit crazy, I want to reintroduce myself to you, my audience.

Hello there, yes you. The person reading this behind that computer screen or the AI investigating if I am friend or foe. My name is Austin but you can call me Ove, that is a nickname I was given during college by some of my best friends. Giving you this permission, does indeed makes us friends.

So hello!

This is my hard restart of my media outlet, this includes this blog, my writing, and my podcast. I will be giving all these platforms a hard refresh because I've been gone from it for a while. I'm now coming out of college, I actually have about 2 months left until I hold my degree in my hands. I'm very scared if I'm being honest with you. This is one of those things that they don't prepare you for. It's the end of everything you've ever really known. For 22 years, all I have known realistically, was school. We are institutionalized, and controlled through this medium, they call school. The groom us for college and prepare us for the hard work it will take. However, that is not truly college. Yes, the time spent in class is very important, and you should be going to class or you are just wasting either your parents or your own money. But college is more important than the books and class. It's the real knowledge that you get from growing in this environment they provide for you.

College really is a social experiment, they throw strangers in a place with practically no rules and let them go nuts. You truly get to discover who you are on an internal level. You find people who share values and ethics with you. These people become you friends and slowly your family. They never tell you this, they say you will be friends but not family. After four years with these people, every day, they know more about you than you may even know of yourself. Then once it's all going great, they take the rug out from under you and send you into a cruel world that can truly beat you down it you let it. For me I took my time in college to grow into the light I have always wanted to see. I've found peace in knowledge that I've been obtained through mediation and inner thought.

I'm really just here to say is college has been amazing for me and I have learned so much. I hope through my media outlets, I can help others to believe in themselves and want to be something more. I hope to be a symbol, a symbol of hope. Someone that says even in a broken world, there will always be light helping to guide others from the dark. My grandma, who I lost last year, was very good at this, she saw the light in other that they never could see themselves.

I hope you all enjoy this content and find peace in my words.

Sincerely, 

-A